It started on the Sofa like all interesting things do, then 3 amazing nights performing at HOME, now the touring bit, to new places and old places and Barnsley and Harrogate, new ground for me. I yes I do have my day job and yes sometimes is a bit of a squeeze, but I always think these things make you stronger and more focused and I am proud to be part of a long long tradition of creative people on the leading edge the cusp of something great often work in bar or 3 bars and one other job and when I think of all my amazing friends in New York working that Cabaret Scene and 3 other jobs well I shall not complain I shall keep Going , and the other day at HOME we were chatting to our server who had just made a record with Iggy Pop!!! And yes of course to do this show biz thing full time is the aim but in the meantime we do everything we can to stay afloat and to float freely to make to creative to reflect ….but today is all mine I do that thing I CHOOSE REHEARSAL I CHOOSE LIFE to quote Transporting ! I’m gonna be late for rehearsing now ..gotta dash …sending creative juices to us all x
Giddy to be part of PUSH Festival 2017 at HOME. It’s great to be part of something in your own town because this town in a big town and there are many audiences within audiences in this town and THAT’S what I’m really looking forward to.
That and the chance to perform three nights in a row, like a long-jumper, three goes to get a Personal Best! As Esther says, “Everything is always working out for me” – I might get a Personal Best every night!
I hope you’ll be part of the new audience that I’m searching for as I search for ‘A Place Called Happiness.”
I have an aversion/ resistance to planning for the future. I am having to face it because things like putting on a tour for a show needs it. Thankfully I have help ( big up the House of Compton aka Jayne Compton. But its peculiar to me, I don’t like to show off, I don’t want anyone who may be reading this to get the feeling that I live with purpose in the MOMENT full of MINDFULNESS because I don’t …I live in the Oh crap I should of done that oh damn I’ve missed another deadline …Oh crap my head is full of fuzz today and I cannot think clear and well….oh why is my T-shirt inside out and my jumper back to front ( I do actually prefer this look ) but I struggling with what is it …I really don’t know…I like to let things unfurl … modern life come on, give us some space to let things unfurl…
And sometimes things don’t hit the spot, for example I had a bad day with my show last week, my head was blank, I had zero presence, and I started to wobble really quickly, I lost my story, my motive, and its a horrible feeling when you are the ‘Show’ when you only have you, and your just not feeling it. If I worked in a bookies or on reception in a Office maybe I could get away with it, I could fake it …But hey I will get over it I will recover the balance…to be human, to not be your tip top best all the flipping time, this is what I’m gonna try and embrace, and be gentler with my little self.
I want to send out a message today to all of us who push and pull too much with expectations beyond our means from time to time…..
These are some of the things that made me Happy in Provincetown …
The renaming of the Provincetown Inn from the Shinning to the Shimmering by Ken .
Breakfast time with all you legends ( you know who you are ) extra star points to Joey Arias for stunning black ensembles at the breakfast table ( extra points also to Heather Litteer for epic pre breakfast cycling/running…and for the laughing Raquel,Somer, Brian, Molly, Drew, Ken ….
The feeling of belonging to the human race..and a community of creative souls
The kindness and support I felt for my first performance on a International stage !!
I felt free.
I continue to hold that spirit .
Inspired by all of you .
Note to self : Don’t forget there’s a world out there…..
And so its really happening …lets get this Afterglow a glowing …but we are late and we are going to have to run …in these heels …across to get the ferry …or we will just have to do the show right here !!!
So excited to be part of this years cosmic Afterglow ….come on down tonight to the Gala if your in town xxxxx
Some serious thing happened this summer. My desire to perform and develop my audience abroad has come to reality. Mx Vivian Bond started it by introducing me to Quinn Cox, who took the baton and invited me to Afterglow Festival last year. Now the British Council and the Arts Council have enabled me to live the dream with an Artists’ International Development Fund.
I am so thrilled to be getting this special funding which enables me to go to Afterglow to do my show in September, followed by a research trip to New York forging relationships and connections with people and places to help make a 2017 tour possible.
I have never stretched myself to do work abroad before. It feels different, and it’s good to see what you can do out of your range, out of the spaces you are used to. Part of me is nervous, part of me is anxious and part of me is so ready for this stretching my wings across the ocean.
And so my ‘A Place Called Happiness‘ is packing its little bags and Sandra the Laptop is getting a special plug adapter…
Dear Diary, well I managed to get away from the coalface of work, work, werk and have ended up on the French Riviera in a house on a Golf Resort with a view of woods and golfers and an eagle ( Of course ) driving around in an BMW X3 ( I know – I didn’t even know what an X3 was ) I feel peculiar like I’m in someone else’s life – like a minor soap actor or a wife of a minor soap actor…anyway get to the point Debs !! Its all about Esther, Esther Hicks is doing stuff to me, she is teaching me the art of allowing the art of making absolute peace with where you are right now, about living the life you want to life now, creating the feeling of what it would feel like but feel it now about building up the law of attraction about feeling better thoughts better thoughts its all about feeling and having better thoughts …..the vortex the frequency the don’t wait don’t have bad thoughts if they make you feel bad…….but if you do have them be gentle with them …let yourself off, accept that moment….
And so my head has had space to think about the stuff I make – to give is some space to soak up fresh air to re-frame to really mean it…so set forth desires ..shoot up rockets of desire …..so come on lets all have what we want lets shoot up our rockets of desire …..
To keep my self grounded and not let all this Riviera way of life go to my head I have brought and am reading the Grapes of Wrath by John Steinbeck just to keep it real n all…
In a post show analytical mood, it needs to be done, so you can move forward but it means I’m back on the sofa, its tricky, the question now what ? Is in the front of my mind, and everything I thought I learnt last year on the sofa seems a little bit hard to reach and get hold of.
So I say to myself I want to be busy, Debs there is so much to do you can have busy, busy is right here in front of you …I want paid creative and uncreative work…I want the things I make to put bread and butter and cheese on my plate …its simple isn’t folks its simple ….
today is about reaching out for ideas on on to put bread and butter on my plate and about not beating myself up for not feeling like I can achieve that.
so i’m floating out there ….
work come to me…space come to me…gigs come to me …and I will come to you with energy and clarity …
I feel better for that..Happy Thursday full of clarity to us all
It is my go …isn’t it?
Or did I forget to take a number ? No one tells me anything …
Cashier number four please …….
First things first, thanks to School of Sound in Manchester and John Horrocks my sound engineer-director of Foley, think I’ve spelt that wrong, never mind. Thought I’d write up all these things that happen between me and my Mum, mostly stories about the Role Reversal Syndrome we are finding ourselves in, the tipping point from bumbling daughter to bad daughter to guilty daughter and all the weird feelings in between, and all the stuff that changes when people get older, and sometimes it’s funny and sometimes it’s just not. I hope Radio Four will snap my fingers off to get at them and make them into a glorious Radio Mini Series, which will excite a bidding war from America and a front cover on the Radio Times with me sitting at my desk chewing on a pen looking bemused and kooky but confident at the same time, then meetings about how can we transfer it to a four part Tv drama filmed on location up round Saddleworth or the moors near Whitby and who is going to play my Mum? And who’s playing me ? Maxine Peake back off ..I love you but ..it’s my go … You are golden …but I really do think it’s my go ….
I never felt able to call my self a writer, I’ve spent years trying to write, I even gave up work and some one gave me an old Apple Mac computer those chunky box ones, I sat for weeks trying to be a writer, I went on an Arvon course I didn’t write I talked, and here I am years later , still trying to be a writer. To write you have to just keep on re writing , I am a Rewriter, practising everyday, and maybe I am a bit jealous of people who just write, but no matter how we all get there I am just happy that I haven’t given up, because I could and it would be fine, I wouldn’t die . I am just putting my head down to graft with words, the Mum O Logs are in production, mini stories of being a daughter to an Elder, a situation familiar to many of us, full of incidents and hours spent trying to find her in department stores, have you had your medication, have you eaten …where’s your car…..where’s your mind, where are you……where am I ? I would like to open this up to all, when the time is right, maybe you would like to share on the Mum O Logs Archive ? Wishing everyone a good productive day despite all this weird sunshine !!!
This is Harry and Lou presenting our homage to the Krypton Factor Observation Round…one of the joys of TV’s past! We made this as part of a series of shows at the Nip and Tipple bar, experimenting with delivering a night of performance / comedy / quiz / mayhem. It’s been such great fun so we’re now looking for extra venues to run the show from – any ideas? Previous themes have been Harvest Festival, Self-Help Help Yourself and have even included a guest spot from recovering clubbers Tip Top.
If you’d like to have a go at testing your observational skills then follow us on Facebook and we’ll post some questions soon: http://www.facebook.com/HarryandLou
But for now…enjoy!
Had a great time performing today as part of the Manchester Weekender. I was busy conducting market research on Re-Branding the Northern Quarter on behalf of Probe Consultancy, telling people that the council wants to re name it the Weirdy Beardy Quarter!! Lets Start a Campaign !! Will definitely be doing more of this in the weeks ahead so watch out, or you might just get Probed!
So on Friday its the Lovely Laughing Cows Comedy Club in Chorlton cum Harder, to enjoy some stage time to do some ranting rambling about living vicariously through FB and wanting to be Armish, Young Gifted and Armish!! Its the Bonnets the Beards the Buggies drive me wild ….lifestyle Porn Ya ! Oh and and getting to do some street performing up in Kendal Mint Festival at end of the month most excited, more on that later !
And I will be channelling Harriet with Lou at the Nip and Tipple on 16th August .